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Leander

No resolutions, but…

We’re in November right now. Oh, how time flies by! We are getting closer to the new year. This year really went by super fast and it feels like I haven’t accomplished anything. Although, I have been making some progress mentally with loving, embracing and being myself more, but there are still moments where I can’t help but feel unaccomplished, if that makes any sense. I want to feel the way I used to feel before a decade ago, where I was just happy. Working and making money, go on holidays and just live life. I do have faith that I will achieve that goal, because I do feel I am on the right path, but it’s such a slow process. It does make me feel anxious, but I try so hard to rise above it and fight it. Also this global pandemic that we’re in and all the chaos that is happening in the world, that is quite an obstacle too for me, it feels like.

I don’t do resolutions when it’s a new year. I never do. I think having new year’s resolutions is lame. Why wait for a new year to change and better yourself, when you can do that today? What I do hope is that I will have some opportunities in the new year. Opportunities that actually benefits me socially, financially and most of all mentally. Doing something I love and enjoy. Get back out there again and not hide because I am scared. I developed a little bit of strength this year, but it’s still a work in progress.

I feel kind of conflicted and anxious right now. I’m trying to shake it off by letting it out of my system by typing this blog post. I’m trying to hold on to the little bit of the positive mindset that I have right now for the firture and hope the new year will open some doors for me, for real.

Another thing that I always deal with each year is that it’s the holiday season soon. Christmas is just around the corner and I have to admit that every year during the holidays, I can get a little depressed. I’m always alone during the holidays, which is not the biggest problem. I do enjoy my alone time. It’s just that you always get reminded about being with your loved ones during the holidays and being all jolly with everyone. And it sucks when you really don’t have those options, to be with loved ones. I try to make the best of it, of course. I will probably have a little Christmas feast by myself, dim the lights, light some candles, couch hang and watch Netflix or whatever. That’s all fine with me, but still. So complex isn’t it?

We’ll see how my state of mind is when it’s actually close to Christmas. I’ll probably blog about it too. But, enough of this rant. I didn’t want to bottle it up, so I just thought I’d blog about it. Because this is my little home on the Internet, a place where I can talk about anything, right? Yes! I really do hope everyone out there is doing good. If not, try to fake it until you make it, perhaps?

Leander

Spoiling myself for Christmas

So, this year has been total crap for me and millions of other people around the world. And since this year is coming to an end why not treat and spoil myself for Christmas, right? I have been on Santa’s list of good boys. And because I have been a good boy I got two awesome things for Christmas. I got a new Apple Watch SE and a PlayStation 4 Pro! A big YAY for me! Something I love and that I can enjoy a lot.

I actually had my mind set for a PlayStation 5 but they are all sold out everywhere, mostly by annoying scalpers that are out there using bots to buy PlayStations online in bulk and reselling it for triple the amount. So, after a lot of thinking I decided to downgrade to PS4 Pro. And that’s that! I treated myself and I love it!

Leander

Early Christmas Spirit

A lot of people look down on others who set up their Christmas tree early. But to be honest, I don’t care what they think. Especially this year, with COVID-19 and all the chaos in this world this year, it’s alright to boost up your spirit with some joy, right? Joy and cozy is where it’s at for me, even though I spent Christmas all alone. The days are shorter and the nights are longer. So this year, like the previous couple of years, I have set up and decorated my Christmas tree!

My tree is not the biggest. It is 180cm tall and each year I decorate the tree with silver and purple balls and tinsel. It makes my apartment look really cozy! Last month the clock went back one hour, so that means it’s dark here at 5pm. And I am living for it! Light my tree and lit candles. It’s heavenly!

Have you already set up your tree? And what are your thoughts of people being so damn early with decorating?

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