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Hundreds of old vlogs

Last year November/December I decided to re-upload all my old vlogs again to my channel on YouTube, and list them as ‘private’. To those who don’t know, I used to be a daily vlogger back in the old days. I had over 900 videos between 2010 and 2013. I wasmainly vlogging to document my life, struggling with depression and lots of ups and downs. The reason why I re-uploaded them again last year is because I deleted all of the original uploads right before I started reinventing my channel with adding The Sims 4 content and other stuff. That was somewhere in 2016. I kinda regret that I deleted them all. I could have easily just put them all on ‘private’ or ‘unlisted’. That way I could easily publish them again in the future and the original upload date would be still in tact. Oh well!

So, yesterday I decided to publish all the vlogs I uploaded and had on ‘private’. At first that didn’t go well. As soon as I selected them all and set them all from ‘private’ to ‘public’ at the same time, I realized that it would ignore the original upload date and it all the videos, over 800 of them, would all be spammed in people’s sub boxes. Oh yeah, the reason why there are just over 800 videos and not 900 is because some of the files I tried to upload were either corrupt or broken. Anyway, I was stressing out about spamming people’s sub box and I tried to figure out what to do. But I fixed it, luckily. I set the status of the vlogs to ‘unlisted’. Phew! No one would want to see 600 new uploads from me in their sub box. So, I fixed the problem.

So, the videos remain ‘unlisted’, but I have made a public playlist on my channel where you have access to them all. And I will be sharing that playlist with you below. Mind you, these were all videos from 2010 ’til 2013. I was such a different person back then, with lots of mental issues, depression, sadness, etc. I personally cannot watch them anymore. I mean, sometimes I watch like a few seconds of it, but then I just switch it off. I have changed a lot since then. All for the better.

Lately I have been thinking about vlogging again, occasionally. It’s been a while since I vlogged and I always used to enjoy it a lot! I would need a new camera, tho. I mean I could vlog on my iPhone but I think it’s better to have a new camera. It’s on my want list!


The best and worst of 2017

Hello, everyone!

Today is the last day of 2017 and this year flew by real fast! I don’t have much exciting to say about this year, but there are a few things that happened this year that made me happy and some that made me sad.

This year I have been focusing a lot on my YouTube channel, creating as much content as I could, like The Sims 4 speed build videos and other related videos to The Sims 4, such as Create A Sims and Let’s Play videos. This year the amount of subscribers to my channel increased with 2000 new subscribers, which is for me quite a lot. I have met many awesome people in the YouTube and The Sims community who I consider as friends, and I got so many love and support from viewers from all around the world, which is amazing!

Another great thing that happened this year was seeing one of my favorite YouTubers Colleen Ballinger, also known as Miranda Sings. I have been watching her videos for years now and when she announced she was going to tour Europe again and coming back to Amsterdam on September 21, I finally was able to get a ticket this time, which included a meet and greet as well. She is one of the kindest, loving and down to earth human being out there! And she is one of the few YouTubers who cares dearly about her fans. Seeing her show was super fun and I will definitely go see her again when she’s coming back to Holland.

My next “highlight” of this year was finally seeing the new adaptation of Stephen King’s It! I went to see the movie on the first day it came out, together with my dad, and in my whole life this was the second time that I went to the movies with my dad. The first time was decades ago when I was like 10 years old. We went to see the movie Dick Tracy. It was fun to have some quality time with my dad, because I love him so dearly! The movie was amazing! I have read the book 4 times and even tho there were a few things different and missing from in the book, it did really capture the chemistry between the characters and the horror that is Pennywise the dancing clown. Looking forward to the second chapter, but that won’t be out until 2019.

Another fun experience or ‘highlight’ for me was seeing one of my favorite stand-up comedians, Kathy Griffin!! I have been a fan of Kathy Griffin since her reality TV show My Life On The D-List. When a friend of mine messaged me with the news that Kathy Griffin was going on a world tour and she’s coming to Amsterdam in November, I literally jumped for joy! We immediately got tickets for the Amsterdam show on November 13, and later we decided to get tickets for the show in Antwerp, Belgium, as well on November 16! Her shows were absolutely hilarious! I laughed from beginning to end. In Amsterdam I was sitting on the fourth row, and in Antwerp front row. It was awesome seeing her up close and personal. It was the best ever!

Now, on to not so great things… This year my beloved grandmother passed away on October 26, at the age of 95. Two days before she passed she had some sort of stroke and she didn’t wake up anymore. When we got the news I told my dad I wanted to go see her, so the following day we went to my grandma to say our last goodbyes. The day after she passed away peacefully. The funeral was a few days later and the ceremony was very emotional. I still think about my grandmother every day and I miss her so much. She was such an amazing grandmother to me. Always loving, supportive and caring. When I came out to my grandmother she was the best support to me. Unfortunately for almost the last decade of her life she suffered from Alzheimer’s and she lost quite a lot of memories. But, she’s now in peace together with my grandfather, where ever that is. She had a great and full life. Just the loss and missing her so much still affects me.

So, yeah! These were my best highlights of 2017! Let’s hope 2018 will be a good year, not just for me but for everyone! I hope people will continue to spread love and encourage others to do the same. It’s really not that hard. We are all on this planet together. It is time to accept our differences and respect other people and treat everyone with kindness and respect. I want to see less hate and more love! And more compassion.

Happy new year, everyone! I am sending you lots of love! May all your dreams and wishes come true in the new year!