After a lot of thinking I have decided to cancel streams on Twitch this whole week! I need a little break and focus some more on myself. It’s one of those many moments again where I just need a little break, you know? I have been working on my stream overlays and I have made some minor changes to my blog as well, but I need to find my groove again and record The Sims 4 speed build videos again for my YouTube channel. I haven’t uploaded a video in like two months! I have been feeling uninspired a lot lately, so I need to find a way to get my creative juices flowing a little.
I can’t help but feel a little guilty for cancelling my streams. I don’t know why, because I know that I shouldn’t. I have received so much love and support from many people the past three years and it sometimes makes me feel like I owe them something back, you know? That’s why whenever I cancel a stream, I can’t help but feel a little bit guilty. How do I shake that feeling off? Of course, I am super grateful for everything people have given me. But still, I always have to put myself first. That’s the most important thing I have to do. I guess I fear that people will think that I am taking them for granted. I know that’s not the case, at least I hope it’s not. I really enjoy streaming and hanging out with like minded people, who take me and accept me for who I am. I can always be my crazy self around them. And I hope I make people feel they can be themselves as well. I don’t have a big community or anything like that. People come and people go… but the dozens of people who do stick around are just amazing and wonderful! They make me laugh and feel loved!
So, what am I gonna focus on this week? Like I said, I need to get my juices flowing again and get some inspiration and record speed builds again. I will tweak some minor things on my stream overlays and I am gonna try to add some more stuff to my blog as well. Maybe add some more pictures or something. I think I should blog more too about random stuff that’s been happening as well. I have watches so many movies and shows the past couple of weeks, it would be nice to blog something about that as well. Just the things I enjoy.
Anyway, I think I have rambled enough. I just wanted to give a little update on my life.