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The end of 2021 is upon us!

First of all, I hope everyone had a great Christmas. If you don’t celebrate Christmas, I hope you had a great weekend. I managed to survive another Christmas all by myself. I treated myself and cheated with lots of food and I drank lots of Rosé. It’s safe to say that I was pretty tipsy on Christmas Eve and the evening n Christmas Day. But it was nice. It was chill. It was something I felt like doing, so what are you gonna do about it. Anyway…

The year of 2021 is coming to an end it’s time for another end of the year blog, looking back on the things that has happened this year. Which is not a whole lot. While the whole world is pretty much in chaos, I have managed to remain centered, as much as I can be and just do my own thing, basically. I have been pretty consistent with streaming three evenings on Twitch, which is always a blast. Hanging out with like minded people, having a shit load of laughs. And meeting new people along the way. I am grateful to have my own little community, or shall I say ‘tribe’, with people who accept me for who I am. A silly, dirty minded, dork that is Leander. I am super grateful for all the love I have received from so many people around the world.

Earlier this year I took a break from creating The Sims 4 speed build video for my YouTube channel, but since a few months now I have been recording and uploading videos again. Not as much as I used to, but I am trying my best to upload at least one video per week. So far it’s going well, so hopefully I can stick to it. We’ll see how that goes.

With streaming on Twitch and uploading videos to YouTube I have been struggling a little bit with growing. I haven’t been doing a great job with throwing myself out there, if that makes any sense. Like networking and ‘marketing’ myself. I put out the usual ‘I am live on Twitch’ and ‘I uploaded a new video’ tweets, but that doesn’t really do the trick. I need to try to engage more I think, right? It’s so hard! I branded myself D-List, because I have been streaming for almost four years now, and during the four years I have seen so many people come and many people go. I think it’s safe to say that I have two handful of people have stuck by me since the beginning. Of course I am very grateful for that (you know who you are!). I really need to try and come up with some sort of networking strategy, or something, and broaden my audience. If anyone of you who reads this have any suggestions, I am all ears! In the mean time I’ll just stay D-List. I am embracing it, tho!

I don’t really have resolutions for the new year. I don’t believe in resolutions. They are lame! Why wait until the new year to make changes in your life? That’s just my opinion. I have blogged about this previously. The only thing I hope the new year will give me is less setbacks and more things that are in my favor.

There are a few things I notice this year that have changed me. I feel more myself. More confident. More aware. I also take less shit from people. People who give me shit I either just ignore or just brush off. I also learned not to please everyone with what they want or need, or dealing with people who make me feel like I owe them something. Ugh, aren’t they the worst kind? Yeah, I can definitely say that I am more in control of my own needs. Thinking back to a few years ago it was not something I was able to do easily. I think part of it has to do with streaming on Twitch. I remember when I first started streaming. I was so nervous! If it wasn’t for the encouragement that I got from a few friends I met online I wouldn’t have considered streaming at all. And look at me now! That definitely made me feel more confident, more outspoken and more myself! (Thank you Aden!). There’s still a lot of work in progress, but I feel positive that I will get there, eventually.

Instead of being all alone at home on New Year’s Eve, I will be spending it with my dear friend Aden, also known as Devon Bumpkin. He will be streaming on his Twitch channel and yours truly will be joining him and his lovely community! I am looking forward to that. I am pretty sure booze will be involved, so that should be a treat!

Anyway, I think that’s enough of reflecting. Like I mentioned earlier, there’s not a whole lot to talk about. The year flew by super fast! Thank you for reading my blog! I will try to post more and consistently in the new year. Thank you to all the lovely people I came across on the Internet, mainly Twitch. I am grateful for all the love! I wish you all a great New Year’s Eve! Be safe and I will see you again in 2022! Happy new year!

Leander

Visiting grandma, snow and allergies

Yesterday I went to visit my sweet grandma again and had some quality time with her and to give her some love. Our last visit in 2014. It’s about an hour and a half drive to where my grandma lives and I was surprised to see a part of Holland that has more snow than where I live. And it was colder there too!

During the car ride I saw some of the pretty whiteness of winter and I had to take a picture.

Grandma was happy to see us again!!! Whenever we visit her we take her out to the cafeteria for some snackin’ and chit chatting. We kept grandma company for an hour and a half. Before we left we took some snaps and selfies too!

The home she’s living at was all nicely decorated for the holidays. It was a must to take a picture of grandma and a beautiful Christmas tree! I also took some selfies that includes my dad and my grandma, but he doesn’t want his picture online. Although, I think there are a few older posts on my blog where I did post a picture of him, but oh well.

I was happy to have visited my sweet grandma again!!

After our short little visited we went to friends of my parents for dinner. They live about 45 minutes further from where my grandma lives. I’ve known one of them since I was a little kid, so my folks have been friends for like 30 years. They get together a couple times a year during special occasions.

The city they live in was covered with snow as well and decorated for the holidays. Even tho Christmas is over already, I couldn’t help but still feel like I am in a Christmas mood!

Dinner was delicious. We had Peking Duck with pork, chicken, veggies, tofu and rice! It was yummy. I even got a little doggy bag to bring home with me, so I can eat that tomorrow. Not having to worry about cooking dinner is nice.

I was kinda worried to have issues with allergies, because they have a cute cat named Leila. I was fine the whole time, until an hour before we left. I got all teary and my eyes started to itch like a mother fucker. Such a shame, because Leila is just so cute! Allergy or not, I did took some selfies with her.

We went back home just before 11pm, for a two hour ride. I was so sleepy, I nodded off for a moment while listening to the first six tracks of Madonna’s upcoming new album Rebel Heart. When I woke up I was almost home. My mom said I have been snoring like a pig. Oh well!

I had a great day going out and about. It was great seeing my grandma again. I hope to see her again real soon in the new year.

Tomorrow is the final day of the year, everyone! What are you guys up to for New Year’s Eve? Nothing special for me. I will just hang at my folks and that’s it. Let me know in the comments what your plans are. If you want, that is.

Anyway, thanks for reading about my day. I hope you’re all doing well. Ta-ta for now, lovies!

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A fucked up world

It’s nearly 1am, I just got home from Amsterdam. I met up with Jenny in the city after I was finished with work! Oh my fucking God, this was the first time I saw her after eight freaking months! It was so good seeing her again as I missed her gnarly ass for such a long long time. Jenny told me all about her trip to Africa and forgive me for saying, after hearing her stories, we do live in a fucked up world, I am telling you. For a moment I felt so blue with hearing the stuff she had to say. Kind of a disappointment. I really have to give you a piece of my mind…

Jenny went to Africa for volunteer work with little children. She stayed in Africa for 8 months. Man when she talked about all the things she has experienced it really made my eyes water! And it also made me realize how fucked up this world really is. Anyway, Jenny’s goal was to help and provide a little something for the little orphans in Tanzania. This really made me fucking pissed as she explained that her help and dedication didn’t mean shit to the people there. She fucking paid her own flight to Africa, for fuck sake! It’s not like she did that to live on their expenses, for crying out loud! The children she tried to help out were about 5 to 10 years old, about that age, dozens of little African children. Knowing Jenny she has such a big heart of gold, trying to make a difference, trying to change things, but honestly after hearing her stories and all it is just something that is impossible. Even when you try it so fucking hard! There are people who say it all starts with yourself, but that is just fucking bullshit. Gosh, I almost had tears rolling down my cheeks, but I manages to hold it in. I listened to her stories for hours and it was just interesting to hear that a charity organization like that can have a backdoor where you enter a world where it is not really about charity at all. It’s all about selfish deeds anyway. I also discussed with her that in this world we live in there is no self-less good deeds. In Jenny’s case she wants to feel good helping other people and that is a positive thing. But after all in Africa, all that she has done was not appreciated at all. Not one bit! Gosh, when I heard that I could just scream! Somehow it switched and bite her in the ass. Why? There were other volunteer workers there from other places who come to a charity organization thinking they can make a difference, while they actually don’t do shit. They think with just being there it makes them a hero or something. Jenny was the one who tried her best to give something for the children. And she is the damn hero!

Sorry for telling this all, but it just makes me pissed off! Now Jenny is back to Holland and I have told her and made her clear that she should be damn proud of herself! I mean I fucking envy her! Like there is anyone I know who would do something that she did. Trying to help! Caring and loving. Sacrificing certain needs to help! I told her that it has been a learning experience for her and that she at least tried to do something. And that with what she learned she has to keep that in her heart and mind. I’m sure that besides the people of the charity organization, those little orphans sure respected her and loved her as much as she showed love to them. Really, I don’t see anyone I know do what Jenny did. Jenny is a saint. Jenny if you are reading this you have to remember that. No one can take away your experiences. We all live in one world and it all should be equal. You are right about your thoughts on it! How much you are trying to make a difference, it will never change! There should be more people like yourself.

I can go on for hours but I won’t. I made my point. I am going to sleep now as I have to get my ass up again in 5 hours. I will see Jenny again on Sunday when it is GAY PRIDE in Amsterdam! Should be fun! Hope everyone is doing well! Peace out!